Archive for April, 2007

5 years?

Posted in Loukusisms, Writing on April 26, 2007 by ephisus

I realized that I stopped writing poetry regularly half a decade ago.

Bandwidth Question, maybe, been writing screenplays (trying to) for much of that time. Or perhaps something deep like retreat and comfort… Doesn’t matter, really. Should poetry really make sense to people?

The Love Broker’s Test

I have heard it said, often,
How I am unwise.

I have seen you see that Fear
that puts me to my motion.


For all of those, I am now barren.
Ungirded before your stern stone shine-less walls

Did not you see me there?
With tears of sand, In thick loud yellow heat?

Stupid and brash and bold, and to and for the brink, thus.
To gaze into the inch wide gap between you, me, plus us.

But, there was no new and gleaning truth.
So and back, and back. and back, and back.

Wond’ring at my lack-full suit with loud and listless sighs.


Ridiculous, at best.

Posted in Film Score Composition, Loukusisms, Projects on April 26, 2007 by ephisus

It’s strange, the things we can become attached to. This particular thing, for me, is hard to reconcile in certain ways.


Let me preface, saying that I have very little interest in 80’s culture, or indeed, mostly anything post 1950’s, aside from advances in filmmaking.

That said, I have a ridiculous attachment to the music of what basically amounts to a Christian Hair band. Stood next to my other interests… Very serious, dramatic and often abstract films, Shakespeare, Classical music, This kind of fare… well, it sticks out a little.

I don’t know that this can merely be attributed to youthful attachment– there were a great number of other artists– artists that I enjoyed much more from my parent’s library of music, which I would not listen to with such regularity today.

— Petra does not even have a vague gothic appeal that would align with my interests in period pieces and classical styles. These guys are wearing sweat bands… not Shakespearean Ruffs.

Highly Irregular.

I’ve been meaning to do a tribute… a fan edit synching Mel Gibson’s Passion of the Christ Footage with Petra’s Track “It is Finished”… and allow it to leak around a little on the internet.

Looking at the concept though, i get the impression that only someone like me, with this crazy out-of-suit fascination that just happens to fall where it does, would get any real enjoyment out of it.


Lie thou there in the opinion of Pythagorus

Posted in Sex on April 24, 2007 by ephisus

My grand’rents were in town this past weekend, just in time for my show.

My time with my mother’s parents has been far between, their interests being sometimes mobile, and nearly always states away, at least. When i was younger, I would see them for a week– or so, at a time, maybe once a year. It has logrithmically dropped as I’ve entered adulthood, with all the responsibility and demand that comes with such a transition.

Anyway, I was very quiet as a Kid. And a teenager. Only in the past 2 years have i developed what my father describes as a voice befiting a boatswain. And then, only in character, much of the time.

Point is, for all my idealistic zeal for Christianity, I realized that my grandparents must have very little idea of that. I suspect that information to such an effect would not flow freely between certain elements of my extended family, if people even cared to speak on it.

I remembered a few years ago, my grandmother asked me, with a sullen look on her face, a very round about question about the nature of my belief in God. I simply said, ‘yes’, in a way which, in hindsight, was probably easily dismissed as parrotting or passive acceptance. Perhaps that was enough for ease, even, to some degree.

I availed myself of the recent opportunity.

Through the course of the half day that I had in their presence, I spoke with my grandmother, offering first the knowledge of my vow to not kiss until marriage, and following this into my personal beliefs about the importance of marriage, and being unabashed about my statements on sexuality, on its sanctity, and absolute necessity for me and my peers, and the deep pangs associated with my inability to explore it morally in the context of a marriage.

She was perhaps a little overwhelmed, but relieved I think. Perhaps she would not ask before because she was afraid that she would hear the typical sidestepping drivel that my peers throw at authority figures on the subject. Perhaps it was too taboo for her. But, I put it out there for her to see.

After the half day of reflection on my recent stage performance, said philosophical discussions, and review of my videography work, I prepared to leave for other enagements, she hugged me, and said, “Keep up the good work.”

I wasn’t sure which she meant. Perhaps she meant my pursuit of financial stability and independence; it seemed likely.

I asked.

“Which work.”


She paused a long time, searching for a word.

“Attitudes” was the one she settled on.

I nodded. And left.

That Man Hath Much Music in Himself

Posted in Film Score Composition on April 17, 2007 by ephisus

I’ve loved Jesper Kyd‘s sound for years now, my first noteworthy editing project was for my boy scout troop back in 2003, and I used more than one track from him to set the moods.

Psuedo-wasting time on Wikipedia today, I learned that he is responsible for more video game scores than I had been aware of, including a game called “Freedom Fighters”… a real time strategy that I have almost no interest in, but sought out the music for many years ago when it was released, drawn by the dark electronics meshed with moody choral.

His other scores (notably the Hitman games) of interest are a wonderful mesh of powerful strings and ethnic sounds, even huge choral pieces that found a place on my playlist next to the likes of Carmina Burana, ‘O Fortuna’ and James Horner’s “Charging Fort Wagner”. It’s that good.

I thought, then, that Jesper Kyd was too good for video games, though the line between film and gaming continues to slowly disappear, and his style and energy have found a strong market in the gaming industry.

Now, though, in the knowledge that ‘Freedom Fighters’, which has been described aptly as a very pumped up, dramatic, epic, Vangelis sound (vastly different from his hitman scores); is in his list of credits, I don’t think there exists a composer as effectively prolific and capable of such a broad range of emotions and flavors, in video gaming or film, today.

The man is also slated to score ubisoft’s ‘Assassin’s Creed’, which, in spite of having largely fallen away from my gaming hobby, and in spite of dubious subject matter, I am eagerly awaiting….

In any case, it should be a wonderful mix of Kyd’s work to date, a score that should be rife with dark, religious overtones, and subtle action ques, and expansive ambiance, and healthy dose of choral goodness.

Also, with Luc Besson producing a hitman film for release next year, and Jesper Kyd appropriately slated to score it, I’m predicting that he will catch the eye of big budget filmmakers, and will easily top the kind of semipassable ripoff crap that we’re getting from the likes of Tyler Bates.

I hope Jesper Kyd goes far. I hope I go far and can work with him someday.